Gazer's Thoughts

Am I pure?

2008-02-26T23:29:29Z

You answered "yes" to 346 of 400 questions, making you 13.5% sexually pure (86.5% sexually corrupt); that is, you are 13.5% pure in the sex domain.
Your Weirdness Factor (AKA Uniqueness Factor) is 57%, based on a comparison of your test results with 120808 other submissions for this test.

The average purity for this test is 65.3%.

Am I a Sadist?

2008-02-24T15:56:42Z

I have been thinking about myself lately, not necessarily in the selfish way. One question keeps coming up.....Am I a Sadist? Some people may laugh but I am serious.

Sadism is frequently defined as deriving SEXUAL pleasure from inflicting pain on others. I do so enjoy inflicting pain, it makes my freakin day. That joy though is rarely sexual in nature. It is more of an amusement, a humor type thing. I take immense pleasure in it, but to me it is funny more often than sexual. The phrase "your pain amuses me" comes to mind but I can not place the reference.

So this begs the question....."Am I a Sadist" in the traditional sense of the word?

Next question is why? When did this change for me? It used to be much more sexual for me. As I became more active in the public scene the sexual aspect dropped off. Is it because many/most venues do not allow sex? Has the expectation of no sex during/after a scene altered my perception? Or is it merely that I am old and do not have a prescription for little blue pills?

Apparently I am spending too much time waiting around in airports. People like me should not be left alone with their thoughts for long periods of time.

jumping on the flower cart!

2008-02-18T21:18:17Z

I am a
Canna

What Flower
Are You?

"You stand up for what you believe in, even if it gets in the way of what other people think. You are proud of yourself and your accomplishments and you enjoy letting people know that."

New Space (the search)

2007-07-21T10:48:37Z

So 6 of the most intense weeks of my life have finally passed and we held the Grand Opening of our new space Sat the 14th. Thanks to a lot of hard work and some seriously long hours from lots of people the place looked AMAZING! We had over 100 people show up and the place didn't even feel crowded.

6 Intense weeks?? Why yes...yes they were. Just as things were really starting to get busy at work we got the letter from the landlord telling us to "Get the f**k out". As chair of the facilities committee I was put in charge of finding us a new place. Thanks ever so much for that piece of happiness.

I started with an on-line search and then contacted commercial real estate agents, most of whom said "You wanna open a WHAT?!?! in my building?" Not exactly a promising start to the conversation. Now, gentle reader, you may be asking yourself, What kind of moron TELLS someone they are opening a dungeon? The very same moron who doesn't wish to get tossed out on his (pretty cute if I say so myself) ass again once the landlord finds out what we are. So after exhausting the possibilities with the commercial real estate folk I decided to drive around Hartford.

Driving around Hartford randomly looking for a dungeon space is less effective than it sounds. It even less fun. The good news is that I was rarely shot at and only twice subject to arrest. Seriously though, I spent a good deal of time peeping in windows which is sooooooo much less rewarding if there isn't a pretty girl in a shower to look at through the window.

I had honestly just about given up and had many pep talks from our esteemed facilitator "b" when what to my wondering eyes did appear? (no it wasn't a mini sleigh and reindeer) On my way home from work (which I drive by every freaking day!) was a sign that held some promise. I called the building owner and set up a time to see the place. I called "P" and asked him to come as well.

The appointed hour arrived and Wow!!! we were stunned. The layout was truly amazingly perfect. I wont bore you with the details of the place (yet) as most of you know already and those that don't NEED to get their butts to Hartford to see it. I excitedly called "b" and told him about the place. I should mention that we also did a LOT of math to figure out how we were going to PAY for this much more expensive place. The following morning I called the landlord and started a very lengthy negotiation process. We also had several conversations about who we are and what we do, starting off gently and moving slowly forward into the realities of our activities. The landlord gave in to all of my requests (except to add a hot tub at no extra charge) and he sent us copies of the proposed lease.

Then we had to present the lease and the place to our membership. I was amazed at how easy everyone thought it would be to find a place. Questions like: well what else is available? Is this the only place you looked at? Why weren't we given a choice on other sites? Where will we go if we vote no? Where will you go?.... back to meeting in Hotels! I am thoroughly convinced that this was the ONLY place that was available and met zoning reqs and neighborhood reqs and privacy reqs and and and that we were seeking.

Now after my little mini rant there you are probably thinking I was pissed off huh? I sure was. But once again the membership amazed me. We voted unanimously to take the new place and raise our own out of pocket expenses. A couple of times now in the last few months the membership has voted for the long term health of our group over their own wallets. No one ever votes against their own wallet and yet here we did AGAIN. And that is why (well part one of why) The Society is my family. Truly amazingly wonderful people that care deeply about the organization.

Next.....preparation and moving day

domstargazer @ 2007-07-07T06:55:00

2007-07-07T10:57:19Z

My score on The Greek Mythology Personality Test:

Agamemnon

(66% Extroversion, 33% Intuition, 27% Emotiveness, 80% Perceptiveness)

Arrogant, combative, unscrupulous, cunning... You are most like Agamemnon, King of Mycenae. You are an extreme prick, and you're proud of it. You are always assessing your opponents, looking for their weaknesses and the perfect moment to obliterate them completely. The only thing that earns your respect is their abililty to trump you, but you make sure that never happens. You are concerned with the here and now, and not with people and their feelings and certainly not with theory and navel-gazing.

You wear a tie to work. You are adept at reading people. You don't take issue with established procedures and rules on a theoretical basis, but will have no compunction about throwing them to the wind if they get in your way. Even though you are primarily concerned with results, and can often get them quickly, your contempt of the more analytical and detached types might be your undoing (they are very smart, and can be even more cunning than you, even if you won't admit it). You pride yourself on your risk-seeking nature, your fast thinking, and your ability to get results. You could probably go into business.

Famous people like you: Attila the Hun, Ghengis Kahn, Boudicca, Vortigern, Charlemagne.
Stay clear of: Civilization

Link: The Greek Mythology Personality Test
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